Tunnel Plug

I’ve read articles that talk about different kinds of submissives and wondered how anyone can simply be only one kind.  Subs can fall into various categories including finsub (giving up financial control to the Dom), bedroom sub (just in the bedroom), domestic discipline bottom, pet sub, slave sub, model sub, masochist sub, bottom sub, service sub, or brat sub.  I know for me; my submission falls in many of these categories.  I am a domestic discipline sub, somewhat of a slave sub, a masochist sub, a service sub, and I think my Princess would agree that I can be a bratty sub too. 

Although my submission is part of who I am deep inside, I wonder if some aspect of my need to submit is not inherent but comes from a deep desire/need to worship and serve my Princess.  In other words, am I more submissive because of Her?  I’m not sure I’ll ever know, but the urge inside me to please Her is powerful.

We had another good weekend that started with a great conversation on Sunday morning.  After, I found a full cup of Her warm pee that She left for me in the bathroom.  I sucked it down and licked my lips.  Having Her taste on my tongue for some time after is exhilarating and drinking Her pee makes me feel like I have a part of Her inside me.  As it was time for me to do my chores, I stripped off my clothes, got Her permission to wear a butt plug and clothes pins on my nipples and got to work.  Every opportunity I had to bend over in front of Her while I worked, I took, hoping to get a pat on the ass or a pinch, and eventually I did.

After finishing my chores, I got busy with “Self-Care Sunday”.  I like to take care of miscellaneous self-care needs on Sunday’s so I’m always presentable to my Princess and this Sunday, I had a lot to do.  I applied hair remover to my pubic area, taint, asshole, butt cheeks and tops of my legs first and while it sat and did its job, I shaved all the hair from my back.  I then hopped in the shower to remove the hair and gel.  After the shower, I re-plugged my asshole, put the clothes pins back on my nipples and then trimmed and painted my toenails (neon peach) and painted my fingernails (sage).  I dressed in a blue bra, low cut black and white blouse and miniskirt and I was ready for the rest of the day.

Later in the day, it was time for me to shave my Princess’s pussy and ass.  I do this for Her every couple of weeks and I love doing it because afterwards, I get to eat Her out and feel as She cums with my tongue deep inside Her.  I am lucky in that Her pussy tastes sweet and creamy and always has.  She had a great orgasm and then She reciprocated by giving me a blow job.  I came to realize lately that the best blow jobs I’ve ever had from Her are when She sucks me off while between my legs.  I think it feels better this way because Her tongue is caressing the underside of the head of my cock and that area is by far the most sensitive.  I didn’t last long and told Her I was about to cum so She could finish me with Her hand.  Only within the last couple of years has She been willing to let me cum in Her mouth, but She still hasn’t swallowed my load, but maybe someday.  I’m not sure why I told Her I was about to cum, but either way, my balls were drained, and it was amazing.

We had plans on Monday to repeat some of the sex room fun we’ve been having lately (anal play, dildos, fisting, multiple orgasms, magic wand, etc.) and I got the room ready and gave myself an enema to clean out and then we went to play golf.  After golf, we were both tired and drained and we decided to forgo playtime.  Today, I wish we hadn’t.  I dreamt about Her all night and woke up hard and horny for Her.  I got Her permission to self-spank and play with my ass in the shower though and took full advantage of both.  First a hard, long spanking using a new mini cutting board that She purchased, the three headed leather paddle, and finally the plastic whipping crop.  I pushed myself harder this time than previously and I’m sure I have some marks that will be around for days.

On the way to work this morning, my asshole and cock were plugged, I had nipple suckers on, and I was still crazy horny.  I started listening to a BDSM podcast that I used to listen too, and they discussed a topic of interest to me.  The presenter talked about how she had gone with her Dom to a kink event and he would drag her into a room a total of six times during the evening to give her a spanking using a different implement each time.  What interested me most about the discussion was how she talked about reaching a sub space where the endorphins rushing through her body, made the pain of the spankings disappear.  I am aware of this feeling because when I am bent over taking dildos and Her fist in my ass, I get into a head space that I can only describe as a feeling of euphoria, where every inch of my body feels pleasure in waves, and I almost feel completely disconnected from my surroundings and completely in my head.  The way she described feeling that way from pain is something that I have never experienced.  I do get an endorphin rush from pain, but I never get the same euphoria as I do when we play.   Our spankings usually end when She can sense that I’ve had enough, but I want to push my limits and see if I can achieve a similar state of euphoria by pushing beyond my current threshold.  In the numerous punishment and maintenance spankings that She has given me, only twice did I feel like I was close to feeling something more than just the pain, on the verge of tears, and completely satisfied afterwards because of the relief and pleasure that I felt. 

I messed up today and I will have to own up to it with my Princess.  I must get permission before playing with myself, edging, or anything and this morning after She had left for work, I went to town on myself without Her approval.  I mentioned earlier that I have been crazy horny and that we didn’t have our usual play time this past weekend.  I’ve been having crazy sex dreams about Her and waking up hard.  I really had no intention of playing with myself this morning, but the urge came over me and I needed something in my ass after I had finished my chores.  I plugged myself first while I caught up on the news and read emails.  I removed the plug and changed to an ice-cold carrot which I wore around for some time before deciding that I needed more.  I gathered three dildos and the lube, set up on our bed and fucked myself repeatedly with each dildo.  Once I finished, I put the carrot back in my ass and showered with it in me.  It didn’t end there.  After I showered, I filled my hole with a tunnel plug, shoved the carrot all the way in the hole so that it was completely embedded in my ass and plugged the tunnel with Kleenex to hold the carrot inside.  I put on lacy orange panties to match the carrot), dressed and headed to work completely stretched open and stuffed with a carrot.