The Complete Me

By the time She was awake, I was ready to get my chores done.  I look forward to serving Her.  After She awoke and after our Sunday morning conversation, I changed into my Maid’s outfit including the new frilly panties and cleaned the house.  I loved wearing the new ruffled black panties under my skirt, and it felt sexy to flip my skirt up to show my ruffled ass to my Princess and wiggle for her.  After, I finished the last drawer in my dresser and completely cleaned the sex room.  At some point, I still need to put together the sex bench because I have fantasies about her strapped to it, getting fucked by the sex machine.

Before I was allowed to do my chores, I was given a punishment spanking and for the first, I had a peeled piece of ginger in my anus.  The spanking was good, but I’ll encourage my Princess to make it longer for better results.  When I self spank, I probably hit myself at least 100 times.  I was happy that she used the new plastic paddle.  It feels much different than any other paddle and makes a great sound.  To finish my spanking, the last 4 whips came from the plastic horse whip and that certainly reached a new pain threshold from her.  So much so that after every smack, my body began to shake.  I loved it though.

The ginger added a completely new element to the spanking that enhanced the experience tremendously.  Within seconds of insertion, it starts to burn.  Clenching down on it with my anus intensifies that burn.  Every time my ass gets smacked, I tense up and naturally my anus squeezes the ginger harder.  I eventually squeezed it out of me, but the burn remained.  This was a mind-blowing experience for me and one I hope we continue.  After, she hugged me and pet my sore bottom.  I know she could see, based on the sad look on my face, that I regretted the way I had treated her. Oddly enough, I didn’t regret the spanking, I thoroughly enjoyed every second of it, but taking a punishment from her like that feels right and justified for my behavior.  This is a bit of an epiphany for me.  I believed getting severely punished for my behavior would be the reason why I would be good, but the spankings provided a way of moving past my behavior and essentially gave me a way to feel, in some small way, the way she felt when I mistreated her.  It provides closure so no hard feelings remain and allows us to start fresh.  I hope she sees it like this too.  It’d be a good discussion to have, I think. As she held me after she spanked me, I think she could see how sorry I was for mistreating her, I apologized and almost started to cry, not because I had been spanked, but because I hurt her, and I felt relieved that she had forgiven me and provides me the opportunity to do better.  The Princess that I worship, is forgiving and loving.

I fed my Princess lunch, shaved my belly and chest, showered, and flushed out my colon and by the time I relaxed on the couch with Her, I was filled with joy and satisfaction.  I felt accomplished, useful, and needed by my Princess.  I felt like my spanking gave us a fresh start.  I was physically relaxed because I worked all morning.  I felt emotionally satisfied because my mind was clear and relieved.  My anus still had a bit of a tingle left even though I had washed it thoroughly, and my mind was filled with a week of incredible memories of my Princess.  I love this woman.

Tuesday morning after a great weekend servicing my Princess in every way.  I cherished every moment starting with our conversation, my punishment spanking, my maintenance spanking, doing my chores, cooking for us, grocery shopping, all of it.  As I’ve said many times already, I feel content and complete, and I’ve never felt like this before.  Yesterday started with couch time with Her and then a maintenance spanking before our shower together.  In the shower, she told me she was peeing, and I cupped my hand between Her legs, collected a handful of pee and sucked it down.  It was delicious and fresh!  I also got to wash her hair and scrub her back with my erection rubbing between her butt cheeks.  As we wrapped up the shower, She bent over, put my cock in Her mouth and sucked on me for a bit.  If She had done it much longer, I would have ejaculated quickly.  I was very worked up for Her.

After the shower, we patched up, I finished my chores, the groceries came and I put them away, and started Chili for dinner.  Finally, after everything was done properly, I sat on the couch and had lunch.  Eventually, after a couple of glasses of wine, we retired to the bedroom and made love.  As usual, I got to lick and tongue her asshole before giving her oral while fingering her.  We quickly switched to using several toys in her pussy, always trying to find a bigger one to use to stretch her out.  We even tried the strap on penis sheath that I got, but I think it’s not big enough.  Finally, after more dildo play, I fucked her and she was in ecstasy/, but did not cum.

She told me earlier that day, that recently she has felt like she was getting close to something bigger than her normal orgasm.  I watched her chase that “something” yesterday and I’m bummed we didn’t get there.  I think she is close to squirting and having a huge internal orgasm.  Most of our lives, she mainly orgasmed from clitoral stimulation and not from being penetrated.  I see her trying to feel more stretched out and wanting more and more every time.  I hope we continue to work on this together, because I would love watching her explode with joy from a squirting, completely open and mind-blowing orgasm.  There is a tutorial on the Beducated app about squirting, maybe we can watch that next weekend.  I also think we can continue to stretch her out with bigger toys and maybe even my fist.  Regardless, I’m committed to this and can’t wait until next time.

She also told me yesterday that If I have a good Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, Thursday night when I get home, I’ll get a surprise!  My mind has been racing ever since then, trying to figure out what she has planned for me, but beyond that, it has set my mind in a very good place, so focused on attaining my surprise.

It’s Wednesday night and I’ve had a great day.  I don’t think I broke a rule but did all my chores and earned some points using our new “Obedience” app.  I sit here now, wearing a great set of teddy panties and a bralette and I feel great.  Although I’ve been wearing panties for many years, I had never even thought about wearing a bra, but recently I got to wear my new pink nightie and my Maid’s outfit and that feeling of femininity having my chest covered with something frilly and girly was incredibly arousing, so I asked my Princess if I could buy a couple of bralettes and she approved, and they came today!  I was so excited driving home, I couldn’t wait.  When I finally got home and opened the package, I immediately put one on and nervously showed it to my Princess and she gave me her approval.  I wore it for awhile under my t-shirt, but eventually I took off the shirt to show it off!

I wore it again this morning (Thursday) and even thought about asking if I could wear it to work, but I didn’t.  I did have a great morning though and finished all my chores, took care of my Princess, and got to plug my penis and ass for work.  The plug that She selected for my butt is one of my favorites because it is easy to wear.  I am going to try to wear it all day, which I’ve not done in a very long time and when I had, it was at home.  Almost 2:00 PM and so far, so good.

I have something else to look forward to tonight when I get home.  My Princess has a surprise for me, and I can’t wait!

Yesterday and last night were great!  I am proud of myself for having a good day even though I was a bit cranky.  I achieved a milestone yesterday too; I wore my butt plug for 14 hours straight.  Previously, the longest time a kept it in was 5 or 6 hours while awake and I’ve worn it a few times overnight and asleep.  Quite an accomplishment for me, I think. I could feel it today though, as my Princess picked out a plug that had a much thicker neck than the one, I wore yesterday, I could only keep it in until I got to work, but it felt great to be stretched and sore.

Earlier, I mentioned my anticipation for my surprise last night when I got home.  I was not disappointed.  I found my Princess in the middle of the bed with a sexy pink nightie on, bunny ears, and spread eagle so I could see her beautiful pussy.  I was allowed to give her oral sex and play with her ass until she nearly came, and I was covered with her amazing flavor.  I’m still thinking about it today with vivid images of her spread eagle inviting me into her pussy and then at the end, when I asked her to spread open Her lips while I rubbed myself.  Two things I don’t think have ever happened before in our crazy, kinky sex life!

I love what this dynamic and our weekend play the last couple of months is doing to Her.  She has become naughtier than ever, more demanding, and more needy and as I’ve written before, She is searching for something big when we play.  I think it is either squirting, getting stretched and opened up, and a big internal orgasm, but I want to help Her and have some ideas that I will propose in an email to Her.

Finally, it is Saturday, I’ve been in anticipation for the weekend since Tuesday and now, one more day and it will be here.  It is a bit overwhelming though because we/I have so much to do.  Pick insurance, wrap up Christmas shopping, Christmas menu, clean, clean, clean, clean, clean, play with my Princess, etc., but we will figure it out.  My morning started off good.  It was awesome to have my Princess up at 6:00 AM with me, even though it meant she didn’t get enough sleep.  I also felt like I needed to be punished for my behavior last night on the line and used some of my earned points for a self-spanking and figging and it was points well worth it!