Self Abuse

I've previously described our use of an app called "Obedience" to monitor and track my rewards, chores, punishment and behavior.  The app allows me to earn points which I can then cash in for things I can do to myself, or She can assign stuff for me to do to Her or myself. The things that I can do are captured in the "Her Punishments & My Rewards" tab if this website, but include things like edging, self anal play, and self spanking.  I had one particular morning this week where I got to cash in a bunch of things and had a blast!

While my Princess showered, I stroked myself until I was just about to orgasm and then stopped.  Within a couple of seconds, the precum and cum that was building inside leaked out and I scooped it up with my fingers and whipped it on my tongue.  I swirled it around on my tongue for a bit before swallowing.  I fantasize about cumming in Her mouth and then Her feeding it to me with a kiss.  Maybe someday.

Before my shower, I had a very long self-spanking session using the bull whip, plastic paddle, leather belt, and the plastic crop.  Over the weekend my Princess watched the “woodshed” video I downloaded for Her (https://domesticdiscipline.info/product/woodshed-whuppin-video/) and She asked me if, when She spanks me, I want Her to wait a few seconds after the smack for me to absorb the blow.  I had requested previously that She do that and when She asked me, I wasn’t sure because I’d never been spanked continuously like he was in the video.  When I spanked myself this morning, I tried to do it as long and as hard as I could without stopping and it was much better that way.  I realized that continuous hits help me reach a level of relief faster and more completely.  I want Her to spank me the way he was spanked in the video, and I can’t wait until She does.

After the shower, I sent Her the picture of my red bottom as She had requested (pictured here) and then hopped in the shower with my favorite dildo.  I mounted the dildo to the wall, soaped up my fingers and stretched my ass open first.  I soaped up the dildo and pushed it inside.  I had the most fun riding that dildo this morning first as it was mounted to the shower wall, and then pushing it in and out of me with my hand.  I pushed it in as far as it would go, and then pulled it out all the way before ramming it back in hard and fast.  The sensation of my asshole getting stretched and fucked while the head of the dildo rubbed against my prostate was overwhelming.  The head of my cock began to tingle and throb, and I almost came.  I pushed back against the dildo from inside and quickly yanked the dildo out all the way, which led to a massive anal orgasm (not from my penis) and squirting.  Now completely spent and my ass wide open, I had to sit down on the bench to collect myself.  I sat there momentarily with a huge grin on my face, my body still quivering with waves of pleasure, until I regained my composure and could stand and shower.  It was the first time in several weeks that I had anal play (besides the daily plug) and I missed it and relished every second of the play.  Thinking back on it now, I should have used the massive carrot that she got me, but I forgot.  Thank you, my Princess for allowing me such fun.