She picked out the biggest carrot i'd ever seen to stick in my asshole, but more on that later. It’s been a bit since I posted, mostly because I’ve been moody and frankly, I’m struggling a bit with the dynamic. I continue to enjoy being of service to my Princess and the ability to earn her praise and rewards, but I’ve been kind of going through the motions. Sunday was nice and productive, but Monday was an absolute waste. I had no desire to do anything but watch TV and drink wine. We never played and I wish we had. I miss being intimate with Her.
She did let me use my points for shower play and I masturbated to completion. That was the first time in six weeks I had an orgasm without her there and having been without for so long, it felt great. I had fun in the shower too and even brought in one of the big dildos to play with. I was hopeful that having such a great start to the day would have helped my mood yesterday, but I really struggled last night with the kitchen crew and their mistakes.
Today, I cashed in some points for two edging sessions and a self spanking and as usual, the edging was great and produced pre-cum and cum that I sucked down. The spanking was great too and I didn’t want to stop. In many ways, I felt like I was punishing myself for my behavior last night and again, I left the house feeling better and hoping that I could maintain my cool. That didn’t last though as I lost my cool at the start of lunch when the server disappeared and left me with a table in the dining room looking to place an order, three phone calls of which two placed food orders, and the responsibility of seating incoming guests. Hopefully the day gets better.
Feeling so much better today. My mood is good, and I don’t feel at risk of getting upset or losing my cool. I had a good morning with my Princess and got a lot done. I did cash in a few points to edge again and that was fun. Laying out my toys today, I felt like I wanted a bit of challenge, so I added a big plug, the black metal nipple clamps, and a larger silicone sound, hoping that She’d pick one or two of those items for me to wear. It so happens that She picked all three! After seeing them on the bed, I got butterflies thinking about how intense my ride to work would be. After I showered, I lubed up and inserted the plug and sound and added the clips to my nipples before getting dressed and heading to work.
The ride in did not disappoint. The nipple clamps are the tightest ones I own and the intensity just from them was overwhelming. The plug, which has a very thin neck, but has two large bulges in it that completely fill my rectum while pressing on my prostate and the sound inserted completely through my prostate and into my bladder felt filling. Every time I moved even a little, the sound rubbed my insides while the plug bounced off my prostate. The intensity was too much to bear and by the time I got to work, I was done and had to remove everything.
Finally, it is Saturday and the day before Christmas Eve. I know tomorrow will be busy and Monday we have Christmas and company, but I need to shave my Princess and lick Her pussy (and use my carrot, but more about that later). It is all I’ve been thinking about all week.
Generally, it has been a good week. I made a couple of temper mistakes, but I think overall my behavior was good. I asked for a spanking today because I really felt that I deserved and needed it and She gave me the best beating She ever has. I think because I did not have a maintenance spanking on Monday, I needed Her to spank me and She did not disappoint. I did get the cathartic release I needed and got a bit emotional. I like hugging Her afterwards because it feels like the experience brings us closer together. I’d like to discuss with Her tomorrow the idea of adding other rituals to the spankings like aftercare and some kind of worship, but I love that She demands that I kiss the spanking implement before She uses it.
Other highlights this week include the two showers together where I got to scrub Her back and stroke myself while She rinsed and watched me. I nearly came while doing that but was happy that I didn’t waste it. This morning I got to help Her rinse while rubbing Her back and stroking myself. I know She is self-conscious about Her body, but I stare at Her when She isn’t looking and am mesmerized by Her amazing tits, ass, legs, neck, face, feet, ears, etc. She is so shapely, soft, and beautiful. She makes it so easy for me to worship Her. She asked me to put ointment on Her butt a few times this week too and I took the opportunity to look at and tickle Her beautiful tight little hole. Last night I got to rub Her feet and suck on Her toes, delicious! I’ve been edging almost every morning too and this morning I did it twice while She was sewing and the second time, the most cum and pre-cum came out ever and I took it by finger full into my mouth and swirled it around on my tongue before swallowing it. I can’t believe how naughty I’ve become doing these things so close to Christmas! One of the biggest highlights of the week was “the carrot” that She brought home from work. She recognized that because of the huge size of it, that I’d like to play with it in my ass and just the idea that She thought about that and gave it to me as a surprise made me so horny for Her and thankful that She is no longer just accepting my oddities but is participating without me asking Her to.
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